Hi guys, I’ve been under suicide watch. Okay bye.

I don’t want to be alone tonight…

I’m the hole in your head, pulling on your neurons, filling the void with whispers of the past. You’ve forgotten what it’s like to exist in fractions, to count the hours of sleep you’ve gotten on one hand, to dream in black and white. I’ve come to remind you what’s missing. Tonight, we will be dead.

I’m slicing pathways and splitting your callosum to stop from walking without thinking before every step. I’m invading the space between breaths, that pause you take to consider words, when I say things I don’t mean and stop feeling what I do. You have to remember there’s honesty in breathing when you stop thinking about air.

I’ve cut your gums and I’m reclaiming teeth, left here when the night was high and our hands were young. I left instructions on your molars about what happens if I start to choke, smile only while unconscious, or suffocate on cheap cologne and twenty cent chapstick. If you don’t try to stop when your thoughts are too heavy, your chest will explode. 

I am hollow and fading when I live in memories falling off in dead skin and cold showers. There are cracks in my bones and I’m burning holes in my jeans, through the dust in my pockets and coins that were lost in the wash. I’m losing skin to the trees with tangled roots, and now, I will rest. For one to live, they have to die.

But that feeling grows in my belly and I just want to sleep.

Anonymous asked: I can't wait until you start posting your writing again. I'm a huge fan.

:) 

Post break-up meltdown: Pt. I lost count.

Lol I can’t handle this shit.

Anonymous asked: You went from a kookaburra to a chickadee. What is it with you and birds?

…Actually, I don’t know.

Anonymous asked: I've missed you blog! Welcome back!

Thank you! :)